Too

E-Lane

Carmel...

Monterey

Too near you ...

Walking Away...

Missing you ...

Break time ...

Whispers to my ling...

Out of the blue...

Jessiegee

Welcome Oskar

Cat Nipped...

Chisel Time...

Cats, Capers, & Camelot

Mistress of desire...

Let it go...

Need to chill ...

Nothing I could do...

Facing you ...

Storm Chaser...

Met a mother on the phone
Wanted to know where's my home

Wondered if they ever trust the job they've done
Will they ever say just go and have fun

Saw a girl chase a storm
Caught in the vortices of forlorn
Wanting to maybe break away
Thinking perhaps she should stay

Will you dance with me?
Take a chance and see
If we only knew
What was truly true

We'd all know what to do...

Two Thousand and Hamsa...

I was told last week that 2005 is going to be a lucky year because 5 (Hamsa) in ancient lore represents the hand. The hand that guards us from the evil eye. The evil eye isn't really 'evil' apparently but means the gaze of someone who is envious and looks for too long. In some cultures it is the vulva being guarded as in the source of life? Hamsa is said to protect my sperm and young fruit trees as well! Gives a whole new spin on "Talk to the Hand".

I saw this photo and had to put a few things together with it....but the whole time my thoughts were about luck. Do you feel lucky now? Is it going to be a good year? I'm 45 does that mean I get double luck until August? A friends birthdays is on November 5 and thats the first thing she said. So do you have to know about the charm for it to be working for you ... or will the whole world have better luck this year. Well I'm not taking any chances ...so have good Hamsa now that you know!

Lynn's Legacy...

At what age do I remember you?
For you have been gone awhile
Was it like that in reality?
Or just a nice memory
You taught me a lot
Much from within
Handing out socks
Christmas at the Scott
Return one's property
Vocabulary & Dignity...

Champion of causes
Except not your own
I guess that's right
But you felt all alone
Your criticalness of thought
The battles that you fought
The justice that you sought
Your refusal to be bought
Ideals of a mother's legacy
Those are my memories

Human Remains ...

Its not often that you reach out and find a kindred spirit...one that in all its humbleness confirms that we are all just humans...for don't we all endeavour to exist in our own carcass...but when you can step out through someone else's eyes...just for a moment...see what they see...it's a wonder to me...and I'm grateful for their philosophy.

It's all in the eyes...

Created with Xara X1

Naked before you ...

Cultures, time zones, and distance
Last night
Not much sleep
Who are you?...Hey this is me
I see your words in my window
Your smiley faces...I can only imagine
So I make up my own little story
My experience dictates it
Or is it hope writing this one
Layer by layer we strip
Who's keeping score
You first...No you first
I went first last time
Ok I'll show you another piece of my skin
Oh ...whats that scar
It's nothing really
I'll tell you about it later

Ground-hog day ... as in Bill Murray

So the page has turned on 2004. Hope of a different world ... like something real has changed. The resolutions, revolutions, and evolutions.

Why do I continue to walk through the fog of your reality
Being drawn into all its complicity
When all I want is your honesty
The facts about you and he
Can you find the courage behind my lee
To think about what you really see
No matter what it makes you be
Or how it affects you and me
I know it won't come easily

Silly Season 2004

Well it's Christmas again. A time where all beings go a little nuts ... not excluding me. I have spent the recent weeks cleaning house so to speak. Trying to shed all that is not meaningful for me. That seems to center around relationships mostly. Trying to lose my victims mentality. Fighting the jaded mind-set. Not easy when there are so many liars and cheaters and bears. What happened to meaning what you say ..say what you mean. I think I might have lost that for awhile.

Met a couple of new "friends" recently ... ones that create hope. Hope I can be myself and not have to filter too much to keep them comfortable. One's that appreciate the status quo for something to avoid. Think outside the box they say ...open minds they have. We'll see.

I think I've been compared to an alpha male. Kind of useful to look at it that way. Am I really trying to cull a female from the pack? Or am I trying to replace the alpha and take the pack with me? If you see a member heading towards a trap do you let them be? I think most do. What if its just the normal re-sorting of a new member. They have to fight for their natural position in the hierchy. The females can sort it out on their own ...right? What if one of the females is already under my protection and another is threatening her... in my mind at least. What if her alpha is not looking out for her best interest ... in my mind at least. You can always fall back on "it is what it is". Take away any personal responsibilty. Avoidance is the ultimate cop-out. Like I was really drunk ... I didn't know ... It's none of my business ... different strokes... and all that.

Denial of disservice ... the hinge pin of modern values.

Erin's Song...

My Mind....

I guess you think I'm doing my very best
To put you through a set of tests
And if it should happen that you do fail
You'll become just another piece of tail
To see how far I can go
On putting on some real great show
As if I'm looking to change your life
Or trick you into maybe being my wife
Why are you always trying to find
Some hidden meaning in my mind

My mind
So kind
You'll find
My mind

That's just the way it is ...

When I woke up this morning
To myself I was thinking
I have to make this a better day
I’ve had it in every way
So why don’t you just leave me alone

Because enough is enough
And ain’t that tuff
You try and you try
But you can’t cry
That’s just the way it is

So I stooped to a lower height
Said to hell with what is really right
You have to play by the golden rule
Show them all you no-one’s fool
Or they’ll walk right over you

Because enough is enough
And ain’t that tuff
You try and you try
But you can’t lie
That’s just the way you are

When you see what it’s really like
Not what it was supposed to be
Close your eyes and turn the other way
And you’ll find that your allowed to stay
Around here at least one more day

Because enough is enough
And ain’t that tuff
You try and you try
But you can’t cry
That’s just the way it is

And so you play...

When your sitting down to write a song
To show where you belong
It's hard because your thoughts drift on
The words of other men
You search and you seek to find
What's in your own mind
Looking for the inspiration
To set your own words free
Thoughts of yesterday
And so...And so you play